Today was the first day that I realized I can actually see myself succeeding. I have always wanted to lose the weight and be "skinny", but I just wanted it to magically fall off. I have this image in my head of me at the Kenny Chesney concert in a certain pair of shorts in my closet with the tags still on and I look good. ;-)
As I was watching Biggest Loser tonight and Jillian said something about a girl losing only 2 pounds in a month and that trainers say things like "muscle weighs more that fat" and "you're losing inches and it is okay if the scale doesn't move", well apparently Jillian doesn't believe that so I am going to change some things again, because right now I am that girl that only lost a few pounds in a month. There has got to be something that is not getting done right. I want to succeed completely, so that means changing things that aren't working and make them work for me. Every person's body is different and responds differently. I know there are a few things that need to be addressed and I am going to start there and we'll see what happens. I will let you know.
It's been four weeks?
16 years ago
As soon as Jillian said that last night, I immediately thought of you and how you would react. I've been holding my breath all day waiting for a post, expecting you to be pissed. I know that probably really hit home for you and I'm glad you took it as advice and not some criticizing you. I know it's been a long time since we've seen each other, but I still feel like I know you really well. And I really did think that if you heard that last night, today's post would have been something different, like I'm done trying so hard. I'm quitting. But this Stephanie is different. You are reacting differently than you normally would and it makes my eyes sting a little thinking about it. You are changing right before me.
ReplyDeleteI am SO proud of you right now.